Friday, April 27, 2012

God Totally Has A Sense of Humor

I love those moments when the answer to a prayer suddenly smacks you in the face like God is saying "Hellooooo! Wake up!" I had one of the those moments while talking to a friend today. There has been an issue in my husband and I's life for a few months now and I've been constantly praying about it and never feeling like I was getting any answer. I was getting more and more frustrated. I didn't understand why God didn't really seem to care about this problem. The answer was so obvious though. I feel stupid that it has taken this long to see it staring right back at me. It took me really sitting down with someone close to me and talking about it. While staring at the text I had just sent, the answer smacked me across the face like a doctor spanks a new baby! Welcome to reality!
God truly is there, paying attention to everything we are doing and everything we need. He answer our prayers...we just have to be listening so that we can hear those answers. =) Next time maybe he won't have to scream at me.

Saturday, April 21, 2012

Friends Come & Go...But They Always Leave A Mark On Your Heart


 

  I've been feeling very blessed recently because of the people in my life. The life that I'm living has brought some wonderful new friends into my life. They make this life bearable. I am so happy to have them as friends. I also have friends who have been in my lives since I was little. We've stuck together through the years and through many adventures. There is nothing better than knowing that you've got friends who got your back no matter what. I've got a great support group across the states and that makes me one lucky girl. Love you all!*



* Do not be offended if you are not in a pic here...these are just the ones I could find easy on my computer. Your still a friend even if I don't have a pic of you lol =)

Thursday, April 19, 2012

Happily Ever After In A True Form

Now we all know and love the fairy-tales that we have grown up with. We know how they all end with "happily ever after" and there are times in our lives when those words make us wanna scream at Disney. Mainly, in our teen years when love is a bane to our existence (or so it seems.)Happily ever after never works out quite how the stories make it seem.
The stories are not just lies though. At least I don't think they are. Life may not go fall in love, get married, and everything is perfect from then on but there is a sense of "happily ever after" that I find in my life from day to day. It's all about perspective! Here is a little of my Happily Ever After!
 





He's my fairytale!


Sunday, April 15, 2012

Hubby is Home! Happy, Happy, Joy, Jo...What The Heck Is He Doing?!

So obviously I disappeared for awhile there cuz...MY HUSBAND CAME HOME! What a lovely surprise it was too. He wasn't supposed to be back until the beginning of this year but I got a phone call four days before Christmas and was told he would be home in two days! I've never been so happy in my life.

The ceremony was short and sweet when they arrived home but in order to have a good seat we had to be there two hours early. The waiting nearly killed me, I swear. First I would be all impatient. Then I would realize how close he was to being in my arms again and I would get so excited. Then I would think about how he would be coming home with me and actually living with me and I would get so nervous I would feel sick. I was lucky though and had some amazing friends who came to support me. I probably would have hyperventilated without them there.

The moment that I saw him walk through that door was priceless. It felt like the whole room slowed and then there was only him. I couldn't stop staring (even though I could barely see him through all the tears leaking down my face.) In that moment I learned exactly what "swooning" was. I always thought it was a fake faint that is done only in books and movies. Nope. Girls, it is all real. My heart pounded, my legs turned to jello and even though I still never took my eyes off him, my two friends had to hold me up. I probably looked ridiculous and I couldn't have cared less. That was one of the most perfect moments in my life. Every fear and doubt that I had had over the past 12 months just washed away. I knew that life was going to be perfect now that he was home and I spent the rest of the time just wanting to run into his arms and then get him home. I nearly killed myself running down the bleachers in heels when they finally released him. (Btw, to you LDS folks out there, if you thought church ball was dangerous, you need to see what happens when a couple hundred soldiers come home from Afghanistan and they release them to their families. Mad house....and so beautiful.)
The sign I made for him and hung on the side of our house!

I've never been so happy!
Well, now he has been home for almost 4 months and it's been an interesting time. I have never stopped loving him and the fact that he is home, but it hasn't been a walk in the park. I guess no matter what everyone warns you about, how many books you read on the topic, or how many classes you go to, you are never truly prepared for the post-deployment reactions. Partly because there is no telling exactly how your loved one is going to react. At first nothing seemed out of the normal...but then, what did I really know about normal? We hadn't really had a normal relationship thus far. It only took a few days for me to start noticing changes in him. Now of course there were the typical things that I was watching for. The nervousness around crowds, the flinching at loud noises. Those are all very common. They are also the most talked about and fairly easy to deal with. Still, it's a little awkward when something booms in a store and suddenly your husband is crawling across the floor on his belly. But hey! I love him so I made him the deal that if he hit the ground in public, so would I. That way we could look like fools together. =) Soon all those major reactions faded away though and I thought it was all over. The truth is though....the real changes didn't come to the surface until much later. 

Once the excitement dies down and real life settles itself comfortably over you, then out comes the demons. Now we by all means haven't gone through anything absolutely horrible. I've witnessed families dealing with a lot worse things than we have but these months has made me realize that no matter who someone is or what they do on their deployment, no one escapes unchanged. Not all are scarred or broken, but no one comes back the same person. And no one left behind stays the same either. Honestly, we had to get to know each other again. We had to start over. There were times it felt like we were roommates instead of husband and wife. There were times that I wondered who the man in my house was, wondered what kind of woman I was now. But through it all there was one thing that I never doubted. That was that he loved me with all his heart and I loved him just as much. Holding onto that was what keeps you going when times get rough. It's the seam of every relationship and I have never seen stronger love than the love of a military family. I have watched families completely crumble...and then through pure love of each other and themselves, they pull themselves back in and patch it up. Those are the marriages that will NEVER fall apart because they are stronger than ever before. It's the most humbling and warming thing you can ever witness.

We are still working to iron out all the kinks. We probably will be for all our lives. That's part of marriages period, isn't it? However, I know that we can do anything now. This was our challenge. We accepted...and we will win. Pure love is the only answer. 

Keep L i/o ving.